So I was sitting there while the teacher was calling our names in the order of our exam's scores, it felt like slipping off a cliff. It must have been.
Then, he called my name like someone pulled me up. And my name never sounded more beautiful. Chos
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working girl
you know how you have these ideas of what you ought to do but the will to do it is just naught! e.g. dieting.
but last year, i finally got a job as a legal researcher. it has been almost 8 months since.
i had so much free time being an irregular student, i didn't wanna spend it stalking people on Facebook or what not. more time to read and study, you say? no, i do not want more time to read and study.
every morning i want to quit my job because i want to sleep. especially when it is raining in the morning. hahaha very professional.
which is why i am always late. :D
while this maybe regular to others, i find the need to write about it. you see, i am lazy so getting a job while still in school is a big deal.
last semester, i only had 11 units and it turned out fine. fine, defined here as me fucking finally passing Public Corporations after three takes. standing ovation please?! #needy
but for the second semester, i have 21 units... so we'll have to see how i fare...
Happy New Year! Cheers to financial freedom (sort of)!
but last year, i finally got a job as a legal researcher. it has been almost 8 months since.
i had so much free time being an irregular student, i didn't wanna spend it stalking people on Facebook or what not. more time to read and study, you say? no, i do not want more time to read and study.
every morning i want to quit my job because i want to sleep. especially when it is raining in the morning. hahaha very professional.
which is why i am always late. :D
while this maybe regular to others, i find the need to write about it. you see, i am lazy so getting a job while still in school is a big deal.
last semester, i only had 11 units and it turned out fine. fine, defined here as me fucking finally passing Public Corporations after three takes. standing ovation please?! #needy
but for the second semester, i have 21 units... so we'll have to see how i fare...
Happy New Year! Cheers to financial freedom (sort of)!
Thoughts on Anthropology, 4 years after
1. Sometimes i have this Madam Auring-ish feel on things. I often indulge myself into thinking i am clairvoyant. That i had a potential super power or something. (Too much Heroes and Fringe.)
But really, as a student of Anthropology, they are simply patterns of behavior. A case of cause and effect too. Advantages and disadvantages. Or what Bourdieu calls habitus. Our set of behaviors and predicaments shaped by our own history. People are painfully predictable.
2. People are social beings, the need to belong is undeniable. That's the way you are, as Lady Gaga would have it, Baby I was born this way.
3.. Anthropology is observing - the way to learn. I often justify my being 'himantayon' on that paradigm.
4. I miss theorizing! And feeling so academic and esoteric... And using words like that! :)
On your own
The time will come when you have to fight your mentor. It wouldn't be ingratitude but being your own person. #padeep
"Di man ako malumos kay takot man ako malumos."
children and their reasons.
I am not gonna fail Public Corporations because I am afraid to fail Public Corporations. it makes sense. when we're afraid to lose something, we work hard for it.
if the world works that way that easy always, then fear should not be something we have to overcome.
I am not gonna fail Public Corporations because I am afraid to fail Public Corporations. it makes sense. when we're afraid to lose something, we work hard for it.
if the world works that way that easy always, then fear should not be something we have to overcome.
too early a father's day post
moddalicious my Dad changed the channel! Mara Clara na baya... =(
konquerology @moddalicious cant argue with dads gyud basta sa tv sila hari. hahaha
it's true.
my father does not like watching soap operas. wala man nay pulos, he would say. so after the news program, hello sports channel! that's ok. sometimes it's not. but really after a day's work, sure Pa you can watch whatever you like. :)
(Pa, we can buy another tv too)
we do not really say I Love You at home nor hug each other. that's definitely why i am not a sweet person. it's rare and unnoticeable when sweetness creeps in. when i had my first period, my father told me to wash my lady parts standing "para dili daw musulod ang tubig". idk exactly the science behind the advice. hahahah
then this one time, he told me i was still a baby. i was in college then! i do not remember why he said that though.
father used to have construction projects in far away lands (ok im a bit exaggerating here) and he had a driver then. once, we were going to Davao and his driver was speeding and told him to slow down. he said to him that it was ok to drive fast when it's just them but not when we're in the car. aw!
and i get a little jealous when you bring chocolates for Biboy when you come home now. hahahah i still remember Minute Burger or Burger Machine burgers you brought home when you won a bet after watching a basketball game. or munchkins from Dunkin Donuts.
i love you Pa. and i love the fact that Kareen, me and Omar have your name. not only our last name but specially Gabriel/Gabrielle.
#dramaqueenstrikesback
Damon Salvatore: I love you, Elena
Damon Salvatore came to me one Christmas, year 2009. I do not remember exactly how i stumbled upon it but the first two people who were with me then were Karla and Tsin.
Amazing music starting from the pilot episode.
Placebo - "Running Up the Hill"
Carolina Liar - "I'm Not Over"
Jason Walker - "Down"
Plumb - "Cut"
Alex Band - "Only One"
Cage the Elephant - "Ain't No Rest For The Wicked"
OneRepublic - "All This Time"
Tyrone Wells - "Time of Our Lives"
Tyrone Wells - "Time of Our Lives"
Natasha Bedingfield - "Strip Me" and so much more.
Watched this clip again and i cried again. Favorite scene! This is by far the most heartbreaking scene ever in this series too. (in Episode 8 Season 2)
And the most beautiful line from Damon (in Episode 18 Season 2):
Damon [to Elena]: Let me be clear about something. If it comes down to you and the witch again, I will gladly let Bonnie die. I will always choose you.You'd know by now I want Elena and Damon to end up together. Love.
"she wanted to be brave"
she sat there reading a book but her mind was away. sensing heavy footsteps only one person could own, Tom.
hello there, he said. his voice sounded like he had a surprise but rehearsed and lacking. in another day, it would have been fine. she was suddenly aware of nuances in his voice.
she raised her head looked up at him with longing for someone whom she will never see again and finally said, if you gotta leave, you better get going.
why, he asked genuinely confused.
so i could start moving on, her head bowed down. flipped a page, a desperate attempt at nonchalance.
he stared blankly at the top of her head and turned his back.
the loud footsteps are inaudible to her now, she thought he must have skipped. happy and light. tears ran down her face while she tried to blink them away.
she wondered, did he always have such light steps?
she will never know he looked back. sad and sorry. it was not built to last.
all she could see now was his broad back blurred with her tears. she closed her eyes with hope those lids would effectively shut close the gateway of pain.
ah how she wanted to take back those last few minutes. live in a lie a little longer. discuss and fight for him. or stall moving on no matter how. but clearly he could not anymore. he only asked why and was gone just like that. quick just like their short love story.
the world weeps with her as heavy rain falls. but all she could think was Tom had never owned an umbrella and that he might catch a cold.
music: emerson hart's "if you're gonna leave"
hello there, he said. his voice sounded like he had a surprise but rehearsed and lacking. in another day, it would have been fine. she was suddenly aware of nuances in his voice.
she raised her head looked up at him with longing for someone whom she will never see again and finally said, if you gotta leave, you better get going.
why, he asked genuinely confused.
so i could start moving on, her head bowed down. flipped a page, a desperate attempt at nonchalance.
he stared blankly at the top of her head and turned his back.
the loud footsteps are inaudible to her now, she thought he must have skipped. happy and light. tears ran down her face while she tried to blink them away.
she wondered, did he always have such light steps?
she will never know he looked back. sad and sorry. it was not built to last.
all she could see now was his broad back blurred with her tears. she closed her eyes with hope those lids would effectively shut close the gateway of pain.
ah how she wanted to take back those last few minutes. live in a lie a little longer. discuss and fight for him. or stall moving on no matter how. but clearly he could not anymore. he only asked why and was gone just like that. quick just like their short love story.
the world weeps with her as heavy rain falls. but all she could think was Tom had never owned an umbrella and that he might catch a cold.
music: emerson hart's "if you're gonna leave"
(Movie) The People I've Slept With... Last Night
"A slut is just a woman with the morals of a man."
That right there made this movie. It is crazy funny. The acting was not spot-on and I thought they could have chosen someone else but this works. So ye. You would wanna have a gay best friend after this. If you already have one, you are going to appreciate him more and wanna marry him too.
I do not like Keira Knightly. I don't. I saw the trailer and kept an open mind. Surprisingly, she was impeccable in this film. Her accent, of course, delightful. The story was simple but kept me on the edge. The night ended and the credits started rolling. Yet the story lives on. The movie is talky, very Before Sunrise. It also felt like Closer somehow with the mood or pacing and probably because it is also a 4-character movie. It is a great sad movie.
(Movie) A Crazy Little Thing Called Love
I cried a river watching this movie. It's funny and cute and heart-breaking. I wanna go back to high school!
This scene was really cute. The Squid Love Story. Squid priest married two squid lovers. He asked them to hold hands, and they held hands, held hands, held hands, held hands and held hands. I really like this location too.
